I am having a year that is hard to believe. My mind and my heart are being recaptured. We are so blessed to be alive and I don't want to take one moment for granted. I want to live with my eyes wide open and focused on the one who is worthy to have my focus.
I feel a bit like Solomon I guess. I posted this a few weeks back but I'm bringing it back for this post. This is from the book WALK ON by Steve Stockman
"Ecclesiastes has the basic thesis of "everything is meaningless" Eccles.1:2
"Only a connection with God brings any sense to the meanderings of humankind. Jesus encourages His followers to forget about the treasures of earth because they get stolen or rust or moths eat them up. Treasures in Heaven are lasting. The Apostle Paul told the early believers to put their trust not in the things that can be seen because they are temporary, but to put their trust in things that cannot be seen because they are eternal."
I tried this path early on in my experience with God many years ago and I think it failed me because it was out of a sense of duty. Today it feels more out of a sense of knowing the pursuit of all things other than Him and life in Him is meaningless. I know that today because of experience. Seeing it from where I am today, it really is about living free.
We are given warning from Jesus himself about the seeking of security in anything other than Father. Been there, done that and have experienced enough of those shattered dreams. I don't need anymore of them. What living life there looked and felt like compared to what I have been feeling this year, the choice is clear. I said clear, not easy. I also have learned this, life is a process. It is a journey. Transformation and growth comes much slower than I was led to believe. There have been some,"changed in a moment experiences." A few. But most of it and most of the deep things just take time. I'm learning this is much better. When I live in this awareness I am a much more compassionate person with others who don't have the "changed in a moment experience." Life is messy, very messy for us all. Even for those who are following after God.
The world system will always scream at us that what we need is found in something different, something it has to offer. That's what makes walking this path much harder. That's why it is so easy for us to stumble and is why so many are stumbling regularly. I know this from experience also. I hope that makes me more compassionate also.
I know today my life is in Him and nowhere else. My heart and mind being recaptured is giving way to a dream I believe is birthed in the heart of God himself. It is God's dream not mine. But then again, it is mine. He is making it mine. With that dream there is also this tention I must live with of being unfinished. The finishing is his job and I am confident he is about accomplishing that. I know He is committed to that and has been about making it happen. I want in on His dream. He has invited us all.