I would highly recomend this book by Richard Rohr.
"Hope Against Darkness"
the tranforming vision of Saint Francis in an age of anxiety.
This life cannot be manufactured on our own. All we can do is believe that it is what God wants for us and know He wants to give Himself to us more than we want Him for ourselves. Richard is a Franciscan but this is for us all who are longing for life in the Father. It is not an advertisement for the Catholic Church. It is a critical look at religion in contrast to what life in Him can really be. It is a call to all who would listen and come.