I had ran out early this morning to pick up some apples from the store so my two daughters that are home schooled could walk across the street today to grandma's house and bake a pie with her. She is teaching them to bake. As I was driving I was listening to some music of Ellery and the song It's Alright was playing. This line always stands out to me:
I asked you just once if you thought we could be found
You never did tell me; but I think I know now
Whatever ship comes, by dark sea or gray cloud
As long as the well’s deep, we make it somehow
Life is a struggle and I have come to think it is more about how we struggle than it is about living on the mountain top. If anyone decides to put anything on my grave stone let it be this. HE STRUGGLED WELL AND LIVED. I'm learning that struggling well feels like living on a mountain top. It's that life hidden with Christ in God.
I got home from the grocery store run and found that Cynthia had left a comment about my daughter's poem. She made mention of a healing balm. It made me think of the deep well. God is that deep well and he is with us always. Learning to live from that well is what makes struggling well possible. It's what makes taking up our own cross and entering into the sufferings of Christ not only bearable...but for those experiencing it...they come to understand that this is LIFE, and there is a FREEDOM to be found in him. And it is found in no other place.
My daughter and I are doing well right now but there is more uncertainty up ahead and always will be. I'm learning to live in the moment much more so than she is at this time but doesn't that come with experience? It happens as our trust in father grows (trust is something that grows, this is not about working harder to make it happen) and we learn this well is for us to draw from for all we need. It cleanses us and it quenches our thirst. As I began to understand that I needed both of those constantly, living in the moment began to make more sense than any planning for all those uncertain futures or regrets from the long gone past ever did.
She and I are doing fine and the well has been proven to be deep, but if she and I were still trapped in what had caused us all so much pain, the depth of the well would still be the same. My eyes were opened to that depth of love and care of our wonderful Father during that time. I don't know what lies ahead for her or myself, but I am learning more and more through every moment spent in Father's presence that we'll make it somehow. Father is committed to that.