Well, it had been three years since I began this blog and the look of it all had remained the same from day one. This morning I decided it was time for a change. There seems to be a lot of that happening in my life right now. A lot.
I'm in the middle of getting my taxes ready for my accountant and it has become obvious that I need to make some adjustments there also (again) to make it easier and less time consuming for me during this time of the year. With a daughter in college and having to fill out FAFSA forms I have to have my taxes back from my accountant by the end of Feb. instead of April 15, tax day. The changes I made three years ago in this area had a drastic freeing effect on my daily life. That change was a change that made 365 days a year better than they had ever been before in regards to my sense of peace and stability. Something that had always jerked me around and felt like a roller coaster no longer jerked me around and felt like a roller coaster. My security began to be disentangled from the economic illusion...the financial security lie. It was a beautiful change. So once again, adjusting some of my accounting practices is just one thing about to change among many these days.
This morning I feel like I have been able to let go of something that has been bothering me for awhile now. Last night had produced the darkest most frustrated internal moments in the whole letting go process of this particular situation. That's a realization that has just emerged as I'm writing this. I guess I'll have to wait till tomorrow to see how I feel then and then a week from now and a month from now and so on. But for right now, in this moment, I really do feel that the burden is lighter.
Life throws us curves quite often that we never see coming. It seems that most of the time trying to make sense out of them only complicates the already complicated existence that is life. I've come to realize that there is never any situation where I am able to see all the intricacies of what is going on. What happens to be happening, is what it is, but I only see it in part. Maybe the attempt to understand it all is just another veiled attempt at controlling things and people? I get the overwhelming sense that is true. And so I am left with a choice....to move forward to the next moment in all it's newness and possibility or to stay in the one that has already past and carry it's complications with me?
The video pictures don't apply to any of what I have mentioned today but the lyrics do. (But I must say, I also love the story being told with the pictures)
TRUISM
Nothing has been what I'd guessed so far.
Unforeseen, this most sweet, beautiful change.
6 comments:
Kent,
I really like your new page design. I liked the other one too, but this was is really cool, too.
Ah...how I do understand the desire to "change" things when you sense a definite season, transition or several changes occuring in more than on area of life.
I fully understand that!! I reminds me of getting a whole new hair-cut. It has an emotional effect on a person. I'm sure you get that, being a hair stylist.
Blessings,
~Amy :)
kenster - it looks great!!!
Thanks Amy and Rob. I'm a no frills kinda guy :)
"Maybe the attempt to understand it all is just another veiled attempt at controlling things and people?"
Something good for me to process, Kent. Thank you for sharing in the middle of your journey. Bless you.
I thought I'd stumbled into the wrong blog at first, I was so struck by the unfamiliarity of your new look, which seemed incongruous with the familiar "Faithfully Dangerous" title.
But the cognitive dissonance I experienced for a fraction of a second was no doubt good for me. We grow to easily comfortable with the familiar, and forget the refreshment that can come from an unexpected change. But we need to endure a flash of discomfort in order to enjoy the refreshment.
Don't ask me why my thoughts ran this way! But I appreciate the stimulation nonetheless, whether that was the topic of what you were blogging about or not! Thanks, Kent!
Bones, Unforeseen Change goes hand in hand with another Truism...Faithfully Dangerous. We just never know what is around the next corner. And the changes by nature are always dangerous to the familiar.
The only constant I'm learning is Father's character...and our identity in him.
Hopeful your disorientation subsided/subsides and you are still able to find some things here that will be an encouragement to you :)
I really needed to shake up the familiar look for my mental and spiritual and personal health.
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