“I expect to pass through this world but once. Any good, therefore, that I can do or any kindness I can show to any fellow creature, let me do it now. Let me not defer or neglect it for I shall not pass this way again.”I've said it many times already that I began to blog a few years ago as an exercise for myself. I'm not here as an authority on anything. I'm not looking to use this blog to teach anyone. It is an exercise in expressing the things that have been stirred inside me and make me feel so alive. I somewhat feel like Linford Detweiler of Over The Rhine in how he describes how he feels when putting his music out for public consumption.....
Some call it obsession
I call it commitment
I make my confession
I make it in public
I hope that it’s helpful
That others can use it
That it’s more than my ego
And my need to abuse it
I am without a doubt a morning person by nature and always have been, and due to the joy and peace and love that have filled up my heart and mind, it's good to be able to say today that the day time and night time make me feel the same way the morning has always made me feel. That morning feeling for many years would begin to slip away as the cares of the day would begin to press in and weigh on me. Over the past couple years that old feeling has only come around a few times and even then it just hasn't had the power to get a hold on me. The tangible presence of the Holy spirit...the very life of God the Father has remained so close to me...in reality it's been my awareness of that ever present reality that has changed. The cares of the day and the worries of tomorrow just don't feel like rivals anymore to the indescribable love that has helped me find my way back home.
I want to make the most of every very day because it is gift and I'll never pass this way again...and for me that usually doesn't entail cramming it full with all kinds of busyness, even though sometimes that might be something I can't avoid.
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"... it's good to be able to say today that the day time and night time make me feel the same way the morning has always made me feel."
Awwww, that's beautiful, Kent.
I must say, I completely and utterly covet your circadian rhythms. To wake up each morning and be really present in it. To feel in the morning the way I feel at night - ooh, that must be really lovely :)
The circadian rhythms (even though I had never heard that term before) feel really good.
And don't misunderstand me...there is still the usual crap created by human activity and the often maddening/confining systems of the world still swirling around me.
It just feels like I am learning to live much better in this realm of necessity by learning to live aware of and free of the things that seek to control me.
How did you get there from where Sue and I live?
Rich
Rich, while at work this morning some thoughts began to come together around a 60 Minutes piece I saw back somethime last year that I was reminded about during last weeks God Journey Podcast. I decided to make a post about it and in a way it answers in part the question you have asked here.
And with that being said, it was my friend Wayne that said to me in a conversation one day that had Father's love not accomplished in me at that time what it had accomplished I would have never been able to risk trusting him with the things I let go of. A very accurate observation indeed.
Actually, just to clarify, I was talking on a purely physical level when it comes to circadian rhythms. My body has been out of whack for years. To get it to get up at 7am every morning I would have to go through a rigorous bout of light therapy and even then I would be living on not enough sleep because, quite simply, my entire body runs better, physically speaking, the longer the day goes on.
I am a night owl in my body much more than I am one in my spirit, however. I would love to begin the day with the sunrise.
I know that wasn't so much what you were speaking of, Kent, so I thought I'd better clarify :) I look forward to watching the 60 Minutes ep when I get home from work later.
"... had Father's love not accomplished in me at that time what it had accomplished I would have never been able to risk trusting him with the things I let go of."
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Yeah. I used to think about transforming more in terms of having evil stripped away and replaced with good. Not that there isn't something that goes on in that way. I think being purified is an element of what God does.
But I think in general it is what you have said here. It is very basic things of learning to love versus letting go of fear, and then suddenly being able to see what you could not see before - because whatever we believe determines what we see.
"A place that has to be believed to be seen" :)
And you can't do that until you have some sort of conception that God is safe to do that with. So it comes down for me to trust, love, and then everything flows from that paradigm.
It's so simple.
LOL. On paper. On paper :)
I think it all works together...or at least that we hope to get it all working together
"And you can't do that until you have some sort of conception that God is safe to do that with. So it comes down for me to trust, love, and then everything flows from that paradigm."
ABSOLUTELY
Kent, I love this post and I can relate.
For the most part, I stay in a state of peace and joy. Not the hilarious type of joy but just an abiding contentment. Yes. There are times when I'm not satisfied with some of the circumstances in my life that just won't change but the dissatisfaction is very short lived and no longer over powering.
I've never thought of it as "the tangible presence of the Holy spirit" but what a beautiful way to describe it.
Thank you for this post.
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