This has been a repeat-performance-thought in my head for several years now. I suppose having come face to face a few years ago now to the reality of how I had become more monster like than Christ like can have that effect on you. I've heard it said several different ways before by others, that there is this strange phenomenon, where we become a reflection...the very manifestation of the thing we fear and the suspicions we hold to about others. Listening to U2 this week has been the source of the stirring and the honing of these thoughts once again.
They say that what you mock
Will surely overtake you
And you become a monster
So the monster will not break you
It's already gone too far
Who said that if you go in hard
You won't get hurt
This morning as I was at work in my mom's garden, it was these things that dominated my thoughts. Through it all, I couldn't help but be drawn to the man Christ Jesus...his life and his words. Since being restored to human again, out of the land of monster-like, is so important to me, I know of no one better to look to and to call upon for help when it comes to these things.
Last night I watched one of my daughters get caught up in this space that just twists us up into such a state, that while in it, downshifting becomes nearly impossible. We all actually have front row seats to this kinda thing everyday as we walk through this world and too often ourselves are engaging in the same game. Not only does this space hurt others, it's a space of self-sabotage. When caught in the web of serving self , grabbing for what we want, when we want it, in an attempt to force others to service our needs, it's like being hit by a tsunami. Once there, we seem to have this ability to turn everyone who is not behaving in the way we want them to behave into a monster. It might very well be true that others are acting monster-like themselves, but one thing is certain...the space blinds us to our own monstrous behavior. We put the peddle to the floor and we plow in hard, leaving a trail of damage in our wake and at the same time deepen our own delusions of our 'right-ness'
Jesus is the antithesis to this less than human condition. He represents what it means to be truly human, and to act as such in this world that has people acting more like a monster. Love is what breaks the monster's back in our own lives and the lives of others. The actions of self giving, of love, of sacrifice, of dying, are the very things that expose beastly behavior. Anything other just changes us into a monster also and leaves us trapped there.