I've have spoken of the story in so many different ways here on this blog from the day I began to attempt to put it down in words. This blog is actually nothing more than a collection of posts where the story has played out. Even the title of the blog is a product of the story/journey. And even though the title is not original, but borrowed from the title of a song, it fits perfectly in reference to the gift all of this has turned out to be and the process. And as with all the other posts shared here and elsewhere on the net I do it openly so that maybe it will be an encouragement to someone else. Each of our journeys are very unique and at the same time the process so often feels very universal.
All of this came to mind tonight as I was doing some more reading from John O'Donohue's book BEAUTY The Invisible Embrace. In all the interviews I have heard with him and the things I have read that have been written by him, he so perfectly describes what my past several years have been like but does it with an eloquence I do not possess.
The beauty of the gift is the secret way it awakens us to growth. Without alerting our anxiety or forcing confrontation, the gift has placed us on the path of change almost before we realize it. And much of the change in our lives happen through struggle and pain. We are confronted with an unattractive direction that we have to take. For weeks or months we have to travel through limbo; the comfort and security of our familiar belonging lies far behind us. Where we will belong next has not yet become clear. The days become a struggle of endurance. Yet when the light and the ease return, we recognize the change that has been achieved. The gift bequeaths change in a completely different way. Quickly it undoes the knots of false netting that had us entangled and before we have time to realize what has happened, we find ourselves released into a new fluency. Like a parent to the soul, the gift carries us carefully over torn ground until our feet stand free in a serene place where we can recognize that we have been blessed.