Thursday, November 17, 2011


As much as I now enjoy the maturity of this garden and the rest it now offers me, that native longing to continue to create never rests. We are natural born creators/artists...all of us. Many when they see this garden, the last thing that comes to mind is rest. All they see is hard intensive work. That though is due to the eyes they are stuck seeing things through. It's one of those bad fruits of the fragmented lives (way of being) we all inherited. Our lives have become so chopped up. We have our "work lives" and then we have our "non work lives". And most seem to despise the work part and often really don't enjoy the non work part either because most seem to despise how quickly it passes which only means they have to return to the work part. This dualistic approach to life leaves many things that belong together cut off from one another. And it goes well beyond how most people view life "the work part and the part that's not work" example. And if we remain there...we are left suffering unnecessarily.

Even though I no longer suffer internally or externally, like I used to, under the dualistic approach to a life of living here and working over there, I actually have a desire to bring my life back together in an even more tangible physical way by combining them in one locale. There's something about the idea that just feels healthier...more in rhythm. Often when I express this to people many look at me as if I am nuts. They desire to keep the two seperate. I assume that is due to the reality that they see work as more of an intrusion on their life than as an integral part of their whole being. Maybe it's just me? The more I rid myself of the mistaken notions of conventional wisdom, I find myself seeing more clearly the oppressiveness and the soul diminishing nature of what the out of sync thinking has created. Like I said, we all are natural born creators. We all are creating whether we are aware of it or not. Unfortuately, much of what's being created is the oppressive soul diminishing kind of stuff.

A few years ago when I stepped back from it all during a distrubing season that got my attention...I didn't like what I began to see in regards to what I had created while participating in that dualistic life. Even this garden took on a whole new feeling. The change began to transform the whole experience of life. It feels much less fragmented and scattered today. Gently intertwined and brought back home together is way better than the entanglements of the scrattered outwardly and driven nature of dualism.

This morning I was feeling the familiar creative stirring that I often feel inside me. And as I walked through the garden my memory took me back to earlier days lived in this space. And I certainly do enjoy what this garden and my life have matured into.....but I am always thinking about doing it again. Well, at least the creating a new garden part. There is just something so healing and restorative about participating with and creating beauty. Every human needs to experience it. Creating beauty/adding beauty to this world is what an integrated life is all about. Begin to take back your life from all the places it has been scattered out to and then just watch as your life begins to turn into a beautiful garden bursting into life.

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