Monday, April 15, 2013

NOTHING WILL CHANGE FOR US IF OUR ATTENTION DOESN'T CHANGE

I know of the events of the day. I've listened to a few minutes of the coverage. And still I chose to spend the day with the camera, the garden, and the creatures that hang out there....doing what they were created to do.

 And I personally feel the choice to hang there is more helpful than a choice to watch the 24 - 7 coverage of this event and all of what will follow. The event and most of the coverage just seems to be the product of humans forgetting what it means to be human.

 We are in need of being awakened and astonished.

 But, an awakened imagination in regards to how it could be, juxtaposed to how it really is, creates at least two dilemmas for us. One being...a lingering sadness with regards to the present reality. Two being...a choice to make. Will we allow the troubling present reality to shape us? Or will we allow the awakened imagination as to how it could be shape us?

2 comments:

Sue said...

Hello there, Kent. I have chosen to avoid seeing much footage about Boston because I don't wish to feel the trauma response in my body seeing it over and over again. I also feel frustration because that many people die every day in other countries around the world but we don't ever see anything about them (which is not to undermine what happened in Boston, but simply to want to bring up to the same level what happens in other places too).

I struggle with this whole space because while I agree and think that we NEED to keep our sanity and our feet literally on the ground (barefoot squidging toes into the soil if weatherishly possible) I also think that it is really easy for us to turn away and do nothing in awful situations when the true mark of sanity surely would be being able to keep our own sanity while reaching out with compassion to others.

I think that sanity is a little thin on the ground for us (though it's everywhere at the same time).

Interesting observations I have been making of human body responses - about the fight or flight response or its alternative. I have been struggling with adrenal fatigue in varying degrees for a few years now, and recently I have had another bout of going downhill with it. When I feel I'm "crashing" and having a "meltdown" it is the most truly awful experience where I feel like I'm approaching a panic attack. I feel so bad that I really just literally want to die because everything feels horrible, everything is unsafe. I completely lose the ability to discriminate. It is purely flight or fight gone nuts. Everything is as urgent as everything else, but I am not really able to respond to anything. I think maybe there are a lot of other people who are struggling with dealing with this sort of stress too.

In that mode, the things you need to do the most - like get out into the garden, for instance - feel impossible. It truly is just the most awful place to be - literally like a kind of hell on earth, with the Creator far from not only sight but all senses.

And then the bliss, when the other side of the nervous system kicks in - the parasympathetic nervous system. The part that is calm, and relaxed. I have rediscovered by accident yesterday that a fine method for regaining that space is to do several bouts of breathing through one nostril - blocking your right and doing some diaphragm breathing in through your left 10 times. Who would have thought that something so simple could be so powerful. But then, so many things are. It is an unbelievably powerful way to get yourself into this calmed down state that I have so sorely missed recently. Here, all the Beauty is, all the Connection, all the nouns that feel best capitalised :) The creative space is here, God is here, we are all here, everything is here, and from this vantage point is sanity, and from this vantage point everything is able to be loved, even the bad and the unlovable.

Kent said...

I don't spend anytime watching it either Sue.

And often times the most profound stuff is the most stunningly simple.