As the light was waking up the landscape around me, these words written by John O'Donohue came to mind.
"May your fragile harvesting of this slow light help you
release whatever has become false in you."
We need to give ourselves time. And that doesn't mean sitting on our hands. And it surely doesn't mean to continue just going along doing the things you have always done in the same way.
Our culture really has done a full frontal aggressive assault on time. And we have been complicit in it. And rest assured, the powers that led you there surely are not going to come and lead you back to a place where you can recover time and recover your life by recovering the other things that have been thieved from you. No, this recovery is going to require some counter-culture activity up in the region of your head. And this is where the counter-cultural act of slow harvesting comes in too. To slow down. To give ourselves time. To create some quiet space, externally, but even more important, internally.
The nature of power is that it will never choose to limit itself. So forget about the external forces that come at us with what seems to be unrelenting ferocity, ever calling off their assault. The only thing that will overturn power is when power runs up against something that is more powerful.
Silence, stillness, solitude, rest, and mindful presence are those subversive powers. They cut off the dis-ease that has come upon us through all the ridiculous voices and expose them for being exactly what they are.
If you can find the courage to face it, and learn to slip into this transition......your soul will give you a huge hug and thank you.