Saturday, March 29, 2014


To all those who have suggested I watch the documentary I AM, I finally did. And it was obvious why you assumed I would enjoy it in light of much of what I post on here. It takes me awhile to get around to taking the time for a film of any kind. I just don't watch TV or movies anymore.

I related to much of the film. But the moment when Tom is talking to his dad especially resonated with me. His dad seemed to be so captured by caring for others...."loving neighbor" and yet had settled into the idea that to see it happen on a wider scale just wasn't going to happen. Believe me, I get that. I used to feel the same. But I don't anymore. And I refuse to allow that "settling" to ever shut down my imagination ever again. We humans are capable of this. But we have got to stop settling. I have people tell me at times that I have gone too far with grace and too far in believing that the human experience can change for the better. And I am really tired of hearing the term Utopia brought up in conversations and dismissed as if it is a bad idea. That mentality is used too often by people to just continue on living in a way that is so below true human nature. There is nothing wrong with human nature. What gets accepted too easily as human nature isn't human's dehumanized-nature.

We've for too long just accepted too low of a flight pattern. We've accepted the lie that we just can't love and care for each other in the way we are created to love and care for each other, and are called to do....even enemy. We've also too easily settled into self-serving narratives. Well, I personally have made a call on all of this....BULLSHIT. My heart, my soul, my imagination tells me something different. And I am going with that, and by the grace of God will stick with that, whether I ever see it play out in reality on a larger scale or not.

Are you open to allowing a shift to hit the fan? A shift that might just change you and change your experience in this world that has forgotten what it means to be human?

Thursday, March 27, 2014


It so doesn't have to be this way.....but it is. Everyone of us need to look in the long hard mirror in order to see who and what we have become.

This experience, this journey through this life, is at its best when it is working as a collaborative democracy. You see this throughout all the rest of Creation. But we see it much much less in the interpreted world humans have created and try to live in.

It's just sad to me that when we most see it happen among humans is during disasters....once extreme hardship hits. What might it be like if we humans didn't just continually, on a daily bases, go about being all caught up in thinking and acting mostly in ways that are about protecting our own personal interests? What if we really saw the interest of the neighbor as important as our own? And I am not solely referring to the people who live next door.....I mean the wider community.

The interpreted world that has shaped us is so messed up. And it has left us messed up.

It's left us flying too low....hindered by and stuck in a devastating poverty of imagination.

There is a different way to fly.

Tuesday, March 25, 2014


A friend sent me this this morning saying that they thought of me as they read it. John, and the deep influence of the divine and the divine imagination on him, has deeply influenced me as well. The influence is more of a, giving me a way of getting more deeply in touch with what had always been there inside me, yet had been thieved from me by a reductionist narrative that had just left everything so disjointed/fractured/separated when in actuality had always belonged together. I really do not think there is a human being I owe more to then John....well, maybe he is second behind my mom for bringing me into this world and loving me and believing in me like she did/does.


Friday, March 07, 2014

UNSHAPEN, until.......

Can you see how free, unshapen, and beautiful it is? Each day, actually each moment of my life, your life, arrives this way. Much of the shape our days take is determined be each of us, and also by the others around us. We give form to these unshaped moments as they arrive, by the way we think...the way we see/what we see....and by our desires. It's a good practice to at least spend some time assessing what it is we actually are desiring and how that forms not only the moments coming towards us, but also how it forms our thought world.

 Often times, maybe always, the walk into a life of freedom is a walk of subtraction, not addition. Our misshapen desires, our ego, our fears, and our shame has led us to pick up stuff, all kinds of stuff, head stuff and more, we now are in need of dropping off. What's astounding about this walk into freedom....into joy, is how we begin to realize that we already have all we need. So much of that nagging feeling of angst and weariness and discontent that's telling us we don't, is actually a creation of all the baggage we are dragging behind us that doesn't belong. Some of that baggage is easier to get rid of than others parts of it is. I too find myself having to drag some baggage behind me that doesn't belong. I would love to experience this new space without it. Maybe someday I will. And maybe I won't. There are no guarantees. But I do know this, the freedom I am living in makes the weight of reality much easier to accept, as well as handle.